Friday, March 11, 2005
Happy Puppy Fun Day
Well the date has been set. I am looking for boxes. I checked the prices at the truck rental place. It is still a month away though. I feel like the guy stuck in traffic who is almost out of gas. If I don't start to move soon, I may get stuck here.
Everyday closer than the next, and I'm stuck in the layers of my fear.
It is scary leaving behind a dream that I have been pursuing for the last 14 years. Theatre has been a defining aspect of my life since I first auditioned at 11. Now, though, I feel it is time to move on, but to put something new at the top of my life seems awkward. It's like that picture that has hung in your house for ages. It really needs to go, but even in its faded state, it still reminds you of the sense of security when you first covered that blank wall.
It is scary moving without a notion of what the future may hold. No awesome job laying in wait, no four year plan, no picture of where you may lay your head in a few months, and no certainty that your few plans will be successful.
It is scary leaving behind someone who has become a big part of my day to day life.
These are just a few of the fears currently finding places to rest in my mind.
I am not paralyzed in my fear, though. I reckognize it as the ever present partner of change. Its a happy puppy fun day.
Everyday closer than the next, and I'm stuck in the layers of my fear.
It is scary leaving behind a dream that I have been pursuing for the last 14 years. Theatre has been a defining aspect of my life since I first auditioned at 11. Now, though, I feel it is time to move on, but to put something new at the top of my life seems awkward. It's like that picture that has hung in your house for ages. It really needs to go, but even in its faded state, it still reminds you of the sense of security when you first covered that blank wall.
It is scary moving without a notion of what the future may hold. No awesome job laying in wait, no four year plan, no picture of where you may lay your head in a few months, and no certainty that your few plans will be successful.
It is scary leaving behind someone who has become a big part of my day to day life.
These are just a few of the fears currently finding places to rest in my mind.
I am not paralyzed in my fear, though. I reckognize it as the ever present partner of change. Its a happy puppy fun day.
// posted by Justin @ 9:22 AM 
