Monday, October 25, 2004
Arranged Marriage
Sometimes I wonder, how bad those arranged marriage things could have been?
The thing that makes dating suck so much in my opinion, is how tiresome it is to constantly be in hunting mode. When I am single(which is most of the time), I tend to not be as open or relaxed. I worry about how I look most of the time, just in case I run into some new female who could be a possible date or girlfriend. I worry about what I say, how I stand, where my hands are, and what people think about me. I don't try to be someone different or anything, its just part of being on "the hunt", and it is a very exhausting experience overall.
Maybe its just me,but after just a couple weeks of dating the same person, I finally seem to relax and put down my hunting gear. At least that's how I remember it being in that distant age when I was with woman. What a huge burden relieved it was.
Its fair to say I am single now, but not desperate yet. I do feel the desperation beginning to creep in though. It wouldn't be the first time, but hopefully I won't let it lead me into trouble and drama, like it has many time before.
I have even tried the online dating services a bit. No success yet, but I am close to actually going on another date with someone I met in cyberspace. Ah, how technology can make even the laziest man seem ambitious.
There is another matter that seems to make the situation more pressing. I continue to find myself a little interested in my roommate. Maybe its just because I see her so often and we get along pretty well, but maybe its because I know that I shouldn't be. Either way, the situation presses me to find someone to date so that I do not make things awkward. I don't know what she really thinks about me, but I do know that dating someone you are living with would take a certain grand level of maturity and openness. I am not sure either one of us has that.
Someone arrange a marriage for me. Cast system be damned!
The thing that makes dating suck so much in my opinion, is how tiresome it is to constantly be in hunting mode. When I am single(which is most of the time), I tend to not be as open or relaxed. I worry about how I look most of the time, just in case I run into some new female who could be a possible date or girlfriend. I worry about what I say, how I stand, where my hands are, and what people think about me. I don't try to be someone different or anything, its just part of being on "the hunt", and it is a very exhausting experience overall.
Maybe its just me,but after just a couple weeks of dating the same person, I finally seem to relax and put down my hunting gear. At least that's how I remember it being in that distant age when I was with woman. What a huge burden relieved it was.
Its fair to say I am single now, but not desperate yet. I do feel the desperation beginning to creep in though. It wouldn't be the first time, but hopefully I won't let it lead me into trouble and drama, like it has many time before.
I have even tried the online dating services a bit. No success yet, but I am close to actually going on another date with someone I met in cyberspace. Ah, how technology can make even the laziest man seem ambitious.
There is another matter that seems to make the situation more pressing. I continue to find myself a little interested in my roommate. Maybe its just because I see her so often and we get along pretty well, but maybe its because I know that I shouldn't be. Either way, the situation presses me to find someone to date so that I do not make things awkward. I don't know what she really thinks about me, but I do know that dating someone you are living with would take a certain grand level of maturity and openness. I am not sure either one of us has that.
Someone arrange a marriage for me. Cast system be damned!
// posted by Justin @ 8:25 AM 
